Wenlin; Yeh I will :)
Akina; Thanks a lot sweets.
Jasmine; Haha you very kanchiong in typing or what? Haha my name is short of one i! Haha. Silly you. Yeh Meg's blog is like so popular! LJS is Long John Silvers!
Anne; Let me know when's the next one. I'll try to make time for y'all :)
Jovenelim; I will tell you when you come online allright babe. I wanted to call you yesterday though.. :(
Zach; Shut up birdie. So irritating la you. Haha.
Rena; Thanks a lot babe. We've got to talk soon! Lots to tell you :(
Kriss; Thanks babe. :) Love ya!
Dale; Whatever Dale, whatever! Haha.
- ; Uh it's BastardBestFriendForever :)
Qiaolin; Glynis says that no matter what, she knows that you're trying your best & she appreciates whatever you've done. Like rushing all the way from school just to lighten her heavy heart & listen to her cry & whine. And no matter what, she lloves you. :)
Caroline; Yeh we really should. :)

Thanks a lot for commenting everyone. Y'all made me smile! :)
I got tagged by Jasmine!

Favourites
Favourite Colour: Red, black, grey, brown & white.
Favourite Food: LJS’s combo 1 :)
Favourite Song: Buttons by PCD, Promiscuous Girl by Nelly Furtado, Temperature by Sean Paul.
Favourite Movie: A Moment To Remember (I watched it twice & I still cry), A Walk To Remember, The Notebook, Honey, Dirty Dancing.
Favourite Sport: -
Favourite Day of the Week: Friday & Saturday.
Favourite Season: Summer & Autumn.
Favourite Ice Cream: Belgium Chocolate, Chocolate chocolate chip, Mocha, Espresso :)

Currents
Current Mood: Bitter.
Current Taste: Nothing.
Current Clothes: Tee & FBTs.
Current Desktop: The collage of Zel & I.
Current Toe nail Colour: Maroon.
Current Surroundings: Messy.
Current Annoyances: My sister.
Current Thoughts: I need an answer.

Firsts
First Best Friend: Phoebe.
First Crush: Dickson.
First Movie: Ay can’t remember
First Lie: Can’t remember!
First Music: Spice girls or Backstreet boys.

Last
Last Drink: Plain water.
Last Car Ride: Just now
Last Crush: -
Last Movie: I don’t wanna remember.
Last CD played: Damn long time ago.

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: Close friend, yes.
Have you ever broken the law: Haha maybe
Have you ever been arrested: Nah
Have you ever skinny-dipped: No figure, no guts, no courage.
Have you ever been on TV: Yeh.
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: Haha nope.

Thing you..
have done today: Cried, talked to Mainey, talked to dad in the car, cried, lunch with the family @ Causeway’s Crystal Jade, home.
can hear right now: Jay’s singing Fen Lie.

PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
1. Jovene!
2. Sharilyn!
3. Nique moron :D
4. Rena!
5. Jiayi :)
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After replying & doing the quiz, I'm still staring at this box, wondering how am I supposed to start blogging. Sigh.

Life's been rocky, I'd say. Raine told me to be positive & I decided that I should. I'm falling hard on my knees & this time I'm bruised badly. Both physically & emotionally. I'm still feeling the bitterness of it all. But I guess with much determination of getting over & moving on, I'm sure I'll be fine in no time. My friends are still supporting me, namely Nique, Pert, Qiaos & Mainey :) I love y'all.

I stepped out & I started tearing like mad. I cried like I never did before. I was in public, everyone was watching but I couldn't be bothered. I can't stop the tears either. LRT then the train down to Newton. Every single fucking station reminds me of the past. Kept calling Nique & Qiaos. Thanks a lot, you both :) Nique wanted to come over after class but I couldn't make it. I made Qiaos come all the way to AMK to meet me 'cos I needed her badly. So she did. Thanks a lot dear, you really tried your best. Talked & cried on the way till Newton. I couldn't concentrate during class. I kept thinking, every single thing hits me right on the spot. I almost cried in the class. Qiaos was paying close attention while I rest my head on her shoulders. Though she smell burnt, she managed to comfort me a little.

I love Group 7 classmates. They made me happy in a way, unknowingly. Edwin is so silly. He wanted to take down everyone's contact number(definitely not because he was desperate but that's what Janet told us to do) & he took out this uber huge pen! You can get it @ Parkway though, I think so. Qiaos & I were giggling to ourselves. I didn't know Liyana was from PLMGS. She was TGKT's badminton tee the day before. I didn't know Claire stays in Chua Chu Kang & Cindy stays in Bukit Panjang. Ben's real name in Benjamin but his email is.. Benji something :) Jasmine's the tiniest girl in class& that made her real cute :) Alex ask the stupidiest question you can ever think of. Ah, I love them.

Sat @ the lounge, think back. Cried & al, Qiaos came to sit next to me. Raine walked over & we told her it was school. She wanted to see my canvas & I showed it to her. She helped me! She even offered to help me paint :D Ohmy, I love you Raine!

"Hey sweetie, dun think too much, or stress too much over things which will upset u... Perhaps u should look on the bright side, on areas which u're better at. In fact, u draw pretty well, just lack of practice n confidence. Nobody can look down on you, unless u dun even think highly of yourself. At times, things may not turn out the way u wan it to be, but nothing is perfect, in order to be stronger, u need to go thru certain things/obstacles to learn. Anything can just look for me... k?"
- Raine, my dearest artiste manager. ;)

Stayed till 930, mom didn't come so I called them. They misunderstood my text -.- Aiya, then Qiaos & I went home on our own. Talked so much on the way. I tried so hard to forget what had just happened. My heart is still heavy. Called Nique while walking home. She shouted over the phone & I supposed that was the only way to wake me up. Sigh. Talked to Qiaos, then to Nique then to Pert. Finally slept @ 415am. Woke up @ 859am, the same thing haunting me. Slept again @ 10 & woke up @ 11.

When you get so intimate with the one you love, he/she was thinking of someone else. His/her mind's filled with thoughts of someone else instead of the one lying in their arms.

I cried like fuck while showering. I feel so _____. :( And I was _________ myself thoughout the whole time. Aiya whatever. Dad bought us to fetch mom & we went for lunch @ Causeway (: Bought my brushes. I'm gonna paint tonight!. :D

On the phone with Nique now. OOMAIGOT. We're on the phone, talking through testimonials & comment box. Fuck man, it's fucking funny.

Nique: Ay omg aiqin is a Gemini!!!!
Me: Aiya bu yao dan xin, ni gen ta bu hui you jie guo de. (Aiya, don't worry la. You & her no future)
Nique: (Laughs out loud)
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Nique: I just messaged her that I miss her & she replied I miss you toooo!!!!!
Me: Excited right!
Nique: Yeh damn horny now!!

-.-
That's Nique, yeh whatever. She likes the same songs as I do. So exciting. Ok whatever.

Only until I take my leave, then perhaps you'll know how much I mean to you. Maybe not at all. 'Cos your heart's filled with someone else, something so new & fresh. I forgive you, & I blame myself for all these that is happening. Causing my heart to be wouded again. Maybe to you, I mean nothing to you now 'cos I've been replaced in that heart of yours. It's your choice, I'd respect. I guess I'm not good enough for you. Perhaps I should tell you how I feel about you tonight that might be our last phone call. Maybe it's gonna be the last time I tell you how much I love you.

Will you still make me stay & say that one sentence that would melt away my heart?
Perhaps not to me.. Anymore.
I haven't hear you say _ ____ ___ for days. >:'(

Zel wants to use the com so I'm gonna go off now.


My heart is filled with X.
Like a heart filled with stitches.
<3.

6:28 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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